Thunder Cat
Thunder Cat
New Years Eve..
This Year I have seen much, done much and accomplished much..
God has been real to me, intermittently, but real all the same..
I started my masters, lived in thunder bay, went skiing, almost frooze to death ;-), went to the Bahamas, Beijing, Shanghai, New York and Hong Kong, fell more deeply in love and got my heart broken.. Got baptized and rediscovered my Abba... changed my career choice, and then changed it again... God has been there through it all, he is always there. The year is almost over and i couldnt tell you a thing about the next. I have no idea what my goals are except i'd like to graduate and finally live a life.. in the coming year i'd like to finally have a home, a place that i can call my own. I'd lke to get to know me better, get to know God better. If i am blessed with someone who loves me, i wil l welcome it but i wont actively seek it, its not me and i wont allow for a seemingly negative experience to change me. I want to be more present, to stop focussing so hard on what i am working towards and be present in my present. This year i grew up, in more ways than i ever imagined. I grew up. It hurt sometimes but i am determined to take only the good memories and treasure them. I wont leave my lessons behind, they were hard earned and I refuse to come back to learn them..
So its 6pm New Years Eve 2005 and i am filled with trepidation, anxiety, excitment and a deep sense of longing.. I dont know much about 2mrw, but i know that i want to live it, i want to wear it like a pair of fun sexy sophisticated red heels, i want it to feel good, i want it to be me..
This is my prayer.
New Years Eve..
This Year I have seen much, done much and accomplished much..
God has been real to me, intermittently, but real all the same..
I started my masters, lived in thunder bay, went skiing, almost frooze to death ;-), went to the Bahamas, Beijing, Shanghai, New York and Hong Kong, fell more deeply in love and got my heart broken.. Got baptized and rediscovered my Abba... changed my career choice, and then changed it again... God has been there through it all, he is always there. The year is almost over and i couldnt tell you a thing about the next. I have no idea what my goals are except i'd like to graduate and finally live a life.. in the coming year i'd like to finally have a home, a place that i can call my own. I'd lke to get to know me better, get to know God better. If i am blessed with someone who loves me, i wil l welcome it but i wont actively seek it, its not me and i wont allow for a seemingly negative experience to change me. I want to be more present, to stop focussing so hard on what i am working towards and be present in my present. This year i grew up, in more ways than i ever imagined. I grew up. It hurt sometimes but i am determined to take only the good memories and treasure them. I wont leave my lessons behind, they were hard earned and I refuse to come back to learn them..
So its 6pm New Years Eve 2005 and i am filled with trepidation, anxiety, excitment and a deep sense of longing.. I dont know much about 2mrw, but i know that i want to live it, i want to wear it like a pair of fun sexy sophisticated red heels, i want it to feel good, i want it to be me..
This is my prayer.